Hi, I'm Nan, I'm an economist, I specialise in applied analysis, I have been teaching environmental, Natural Resource Economics and applied econometrics for decades now. So I'm a fact based person, I believe in facts. I play with the data. So this is quite new to me. 

I was a city girl, I was raised up in China, I grew up in concrete jungles, and I took pride in being a city girl. But I came to a stage in my life, I need to heal. And somehow, luckily, this program found me and I found this program. And it made me aware of, I'm still learning, but it made me aware of nature, nature is the thing that could help me to heal and grow, but I need to learn how. 

It's challenging, I like a challenge. It's challenging in terms it could be intense, overwhelmingly intense, in terms of the feelings that it triggered inside of me because to be able to survive I kind of became a mastery of suppressing my own feelings. And I'm so good at it and I forgot how to feel. I feel relaxed, it feels comfortable. But it also feels unfamiliar, because I'm not used to that kind of support, unconditional support, that effort less support, that non judgmental support. So, it feels unfamiliar.

I feel that the trees and and the nature are going to help me bring myself back the ability to feel again, the ability to be myself and be connected with this world as myself. 

I hope the trees and the nature could help me do that,and I believe they could. Because we are connected as part of the nature we are not isolated. Cells or beings, nothing in this planet is isolated cells or beings we are part of nature. Like every one of us, we live in a big family that every one of us is a member of the family and we have to work together to make a big happy family. We cannot have a big happy family just by working on our own. 

It's ah, I have a favourite type of tree. I'm new to this and I haven't engaged with the process yet but as I start to notice the tree calling and at the beginning I found a particular type of tree that's calling to me. That's the tree with very low main stem but with grown trees that covering a large part of the land around it. So like an umbrella, a protective one. 

And then amazingly today, another tree that attached to me and that tree it touched me because I think that the lightning separated the tree and the one part died, is dying one part is dying, and I can feel the sadness in the tree because the part of dying is is my son's daddy. He passed away about two years ago after we separated. So yeah,I feel a deep connection with that tree.